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=:[ Friday, April 16, 2004 ]:= =:-:=
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There was once... This guy... That really loved a gal...
he loved her so much...
that he would do anything just to see her smile...
even willing to give up his everything...
but he just don't have the courage to tell her...
everyday... He could only look at her from afar...
One day... That guy managed to muster up his courage and talk to her...
he walked to her and said 'hello'
the gal looked at him, smile sweetly and said a cheerful 'hi'
+++===...Find time to realize that there is one person who mean so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you...===+++
Since then... Whenever they saw each other.. They would chat happily :D
the guy was always looking forward to be with her...
and he always keep those cherished moments they had together deep inside his heart..
then one day... The gal told the guy that she would be going to London to further her studies in 5 days time... And she would only be back in Singapore 3 years later...
he was reluctant to let her go... But he had no choice...
he went to pick up 999 saga seeds and put them all in a love-shaped glass...
999... Everlasting love...
On the 5th day.. The guy accompany the gal to the airport...
They made a promise that 3 year later they would meet up at their hangout
the guy bid her farewell and gave her the saga seed glass bottle...
the gal smiled and said thanks to him and departed...
the guy could hold his tears no more...
he started crying...
he know that this will be the last time he would be seeing her until 3 years had passed..
1 week passed... He finally cant take it anymore... He missed her too much... But there was nothing he could do...
he wanted to fly to London to look for her...
but he have another plan to buy a diamond ring for her...
he looked at his bank account... There was $1000...
the ring costs $900 and the air flight... $950..
he could only chose 1...
he tried to appeal his friends for loans but none was willing to...
thinking 1 whole night... He finally decided to buy the ring...
3 years passed... The guy went to the airport to wait for the gal...
hours passed... She did not turn up...
that guy cried but told himself not to give up waiting
+++===...Always do what u think is right... For what may deceive your brain would never ever had the chance to deceive your heart...===+++
that guy went to the airport everyday hoping that the gal would arrive...
but all was in vain...
1 month passed.. A doctor walked to him...
he told him that the gal had told him not to wait...
and told him that he was the gal's husband...
that guy couldn't believe his ears...
he just wept...
day and night... Blaming himself...
why dint he tell her that he love her?
why dint he go to London to look for her?
why dint he call her?
why dint he at least send her a e-mail?
it was all too late...
everyday... He just wept...
and he even try drinking to forgot all her worries...
it dint work... He smoke... Take drugs...
and in the end... He always end up throwing up...
making him feeling more worst...
but what could be more worst that what he is feeling inside his heart??
+++===...Tell those that meant something to you that they were in your heart... For if you don't... They may just walk off and out of your life...===+++
Then 1 day inside a cafe... The guy saw the gal.... All the memories and times he had with her all flood over his mind...
tears filled his eyes... He don't know what to do...
just then... The gal took sight of him...
he told himself that he must not let the gal know about him and bring more worries to her....
and he ran off... Out of the cafe...
the gal called his name... But he ignored it and continue running...
he told himself to forget her but he just cant..
+++===...Once you have love... You will always love... For what in your mind may escape but what in your heart will remain forever...===+++
A year later... That guy saw some best friends of the gal...
he followed them...
soon after... They were in the cemetery....
He saw his girl..
a photograph of her smiling sweetly at him from her tombstone...
beside the tombstone was those saga seeds he had given her...
the gal's friends saw him and he asked them wad happen...
they told him that the gal was knocked down by a truck...
and the day of her death turns out to be....
the day when the guy met the gal in the cafe....
the gal was very upset for what happen on the cafe and began crying...
the guy was the only guy she loved and yet that guy doubt her...
while she crossed a road... The tears blocked her view and the truck just ramp thru....
and it ends up that.... The gal's 'boyfriend' was actually just a decoy...
that guy was just a doctor trying to make a fool out of that guy...
the gal reason for not going to their hangout after the 3 years on London is caused by that same guy.. That so called 'boyfriend'...
that 'boyfriend' lied to her and tell her that that guy don't love her any more and tell her to give up....
but the gal still hang on...
for she don't believe that the guy would betrayed her....
but the incident of the cafe.... When the guy left her....
her heart broke.... And tears filled her eyes...
+++===...Don't ever try fooling someone... For in the end u might find out that a beautiful relationship was ruined by you!...===+++
+++===...Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to.... Doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have...===+++
the guy just wept... He blame himself....
if he had walked to her at the cafe...
perhaps this wont happen....
perhaps they would have been happy together now...
perhaps she might be still living....
perhaps.... Just perhaps...
he took out the ring which he wanted to give to the gal...
and placed it on top of the saga seed bottle...
he chanted a silent prayer for her and wished that she would rest in peace...
since then.. The guy would always go to her tombstone and stayed there with her...
he even stayed overnight...
+++===...The power of love overcomes all fears of man...===+++
he chat with her...
and tell her wad happens to him...
and.. He confesses her love for her...
all alone with a verse in his mind...
Death Shall Never Keep Us Apart...
-:- [ Sinika Bounike ] -:- [7:40 PM] -:-
=:[ Sunday, February 29, 2004 ]:=
There was once...
i was talking happily to the girl i love ..
we talked alot... about love... nature... our family background...
everything was great... it was perfect...
i wanted to tell her about my true feelings towards her...
But... I was to shy to tell her i love her ..
cause i was afraid she might reject me ..
i ended up being her godbrother ..
and she loved me as a godbrother ..
Whenever She called me "gor"... i would feel a sense of grieve...
Deep inside me... my heart hurts...
One day i muster up my courage and asked her for a date ..
"erm... Samantha... will you... go out with me?"
She agreed and i was happy .. really happy...
The day came ...
i dressed myself up .. thinking where should i bring her to... a movie?? beach??
i quickly rushed to the place i would be meeting her ..
waiting eagerly for the person i love to turn up ..
i waited...and waited .. but she did not turn up ..
i waited for 2 hrs .. but she never turned up ..
i never gave up .. and continued waiting... 3 hrs passed... 4...5...6....
I keep on telling myself that she would come...
Dont wanna give up... i thought maybe she have a reason for not comming....
i look at my watch... its 7pm... too late to go anywhere now...
so... i decided to go home... with heavy footsteps...
then... i received a call that she got into an accident while crossing a road...
She lost alot of blood and might not live ...
After hearing that...
my hand was trembling and i dropped my handphone...
it was spoilt... but i dint care...
cause.... she was far more important that my handphone...
Shocked and felt with agony ..
i rushed to the hospital .. praying that she will be alright ..
Why did all that happen to her? Why can't it happen to me??
i rather die than to let her die .. why did fate chose her ??
fate... YOU SHOULD KNOW MY LIFE IS MEANINGLESS WITHOUT HER!!
Endless tears flowed as i rushed to the hospital ...
As soon as i reached the hospital .. i quickly ran into the hospital room ..
My legs were thired of massive running... but i dont care..
i ignore my legs cries of telling me to stop and continue running...
When i reach the room... i saw her lying on bed...
with the injection tubes and hospital equipments beside her...
The doctors told me that she will die soon ..
and asked me to tell her my last words before she leave this world ..
i nearly collaped after hearing this...
i begged the doctors to try thier best to save her...
the doctors told me that they have aready did their best...
And it'll take a miracle for her to survive...
Everyone left the room .. and i was alone with her ..
I looked at her and my tears were comming out...
but i told myself not to cry cause i dont want her to see me sad...
but i just couldnt help it... tears rolled down my cheeks...
She told me not to cry .. because everyone would leave the world..
Finally i said with a heartbroken voice....
" You know .. i have always been wanting to say something to you..
is that... i love you ... ever since the first time i saw you ..
i had fall in love with you...
sorry..i did not tell u earlier .. i really regret it .."
Her dying eyes looked at me with happiness ...
I looked deep into her eyes...
she told me ... " you know what? i had been loving u too!!"
"sorry for not telling you neither... i cant seems to have the courage...
thats why i became your godsis... i dont wanna lose you!!"
After i heard those words .. i hugged her tightly and gave her a kiss..
she smiled at me and said thank you...
then .. she slowly close her eyes...
her body felt lifeless .. i looked at her .. she was dead......
i gave her another kiss.... a kiss of goodbye...
i cried and cried throughout the night ...
wishing that the one who was dead was me and not her ..
why .. why didn't i tell her i loved her from the start?
if i had told her .. we would be together .. why ..
why did i ask her to go on a date??
if i didn't .. she wouldn't get into an accident...
why ...just.. why!!
WHY!!! this can't be fate .. why is fate going against me ..
its my fault she got into this accident .. my fault ..
totally my fault ... i really hate myself for it ...
deep within my heart... i felt that something was missing...
something... which i belived was called true love...
But .. suddenly .. i heard a voice in my head ..
deep wintin my heart... it was her voice ..
she said .."its not ur fault .. its juz fate ..
fate wants me to leave this world faster .. dun blame urself plz ..
now i'm happy in heaven .. remember ..
dont worry... im happy that you said that you love me...
maybe we cant be together for now...
but maybe we could be together in our next life...
till then.. i would be waiting ... waiting for you...
and i hope that you would love me too...
i am looking down at u from heaven..
just remember... when you were happy... i would be happy too...
and also remember.. i love u!!! Cya!"
i always remembered the words she told me
i wanted to start a new life ...
i took her as my wife deep in my heart .. always loyal to her ..
i never looked at other girls with pervertic eyes...
and i was always happy cause i knew that if i was happy ...
she would be happy too ...
To Ppl Out There .. If U Truly Love A Person .. Tell that person before its too late .. coz u might never see that person again !!!!!
-:- [ Sinika Bounike ] -:- [5:16 PM] -:-